I promised that I would never take my own life… but for over a week now I have made every one I love miserable, the woman I love and care for I have made cry nightly,

I am honestly trying my best… tonight it was because I was not taking care of her needs and doing my work in the fashion she likes… my only meaning in life is caring for her and all i do is make her unhappy…

I want to die but I never break my word… so I sit here and wish that something would take my life… because I have finally proven through trying my best to make the world a better place… that the world is better off with out me in it